Ia te uita cum oboseste pana si Ingrid

Ploua. E dimineata, prea dimineata. Damful de pamant ud se strecoara pe geam. Azi noapte nu am inchis un ochi. Mi-am laut pe la 4 un hanorac in care parca inotam si m-am pus in pat si imi era din ce in ce mai frig. Liniste. Ploua. Incercam sa ma gandesc la ceva dar inevitabil mintea mea zbura altundeva. De la atatea mutilari cred ca am cicatrice pe creier. Imi simteam picioarele foarte moi, uneori ma mir ca sunt in stare sa umblu. Ma simt ca o cutie plina cu vid. Nimic nu intra dar mai ales, nimic nu iese. nimic.

Ploua si e 15 septembrie. Singurul lucru de care-mi amintedste ploia, e ca niciodata nu am fost sarutata in ploaie. As vrea sa dau drumul. Anul trecut pe vremea asta eram fericita, acum nu simt nici un dram de fericire. Nici nu stiu ce simt.

Cum se face ca toti stiu cine sunt, doar eu nu ma cunosc. Mi se pare ca in fiecare dimineata vad o straina in oglinda, o ciudata care imi rade in fata si ma vede neputincioasa. Mi-e frica sunt singura si e foarte frig. Nu-mi gasesc ambitiile. Singura ambitie pe care o am acuma, este sa am o ambitie. Si singurul vis pe care il am este sa ma trezesc din vis. Sunt mult prea obosita sa vorbesc si sunt mult prea obosita sa nu simt, sa fiu singura cuc. M-am saturat sa-mi pese si altora sa li se falfaie. Incerc, dar obosesc. Sunt foarte ambitioasa din fire, si ma zbat mult, pana obosesc si ma dau batuta. Candva cineva nu ma lasa sa ma dau batuta, candva eram incurajata.
E o prostie tot ce scriu si pote ar fi mai bine sa nici nu mai scriu:-?? Nimic nu ma mai inspira si nimic nu ma mai motiveaza. Candva stiam de ce ma trezesc in fiecare dimineata, stiam de ce rezist o spatamana intreaga. Acuma mi se pare o prostie sa mai incerc sa ma tin pe picioare. That's it.
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It's like whatever i do
I just cant get through to you
I never gonna tell you nothing wrong, Listen

Now, now she loved me, shawty I love her
Used to jump up in the maybach and roll out.
Used to care, she used to share
The love that she used to give me can't be found.
I lost my way, she said she'd stay
And lately I've been sleeping with a ghost
My stock is down and out, I used to be worth my weight in gold
That was before the great depression kicked in and rocked us
And that was before the huricane came, came in and stopped us.
I told you to leave, but you lied to me
When you said that, baby no worries I promise to get us back
I know sorries, just wouldn't do it,
Her Heart is obliterated, I'm trying to travel through
But it's like moving mountains...
It's like moving mountains...
But I keep climbing and hoping things would change
And the sky turns grey, and the water from the rain, washes progress away
It's like moving mountains...
It's like moving mountains...
Why you just leave me
Just leave me be
Just leave me
Just leave me be
Why you just leave me
Just leave me be
Why you just leave me
Just leave me be oh oh ohhh

She, she don't touch me I don't touch her
We ain't really even said a word
I really wanna give her everything she deserves,
But the bad took away the good
She thinks that I'm full of it
Arguments, always pissed, man I'm tired.
Every kiss, that I missed, girl you know I'm trying.
You never believe when I say, and I never believe it when you say, I love you
And I shouldn't complain about it, I should take it like a man and walk up out it.
Cause we will never be the same... oh
I've been standing in gas, and you have been the flame

Girl I know sorry, just wouldn't do it,
Her Heart is obliterated, I'm trying to get through
Gotta move this mountain...
It's like moving mountains...
But I keep climbing and hoping things would change
And the sky turns grey, and the water from the rain, washes progress away
It's like moving mountains...
It's like moving mountains...
Well baby why you just leave me
Just leave me be
Just leave me
Just leave me be
Why you just leave me
Just leave me be
Why you just leave me
Just leave me be oh

[Background Singing]

I know sorries, just wouldn't do it
My heart is obliterated, I'm trying travel through
But it's like moving mountains...
It's like moving mountains... hey
But I keep climbing and hoping things would change
And the sky turns grey, and the water from the rain washes progress away
It's like moving a mountain...
It's like moving mountains...
Well baby why you just leave me,
Just leave me be
Just leave me
just leave me be
Why you just leave me
just leave me be
Why you just leave me
just leave me be ooh